I haven't written in a long time. I always want to, but sometimes I find it easier just to live in the moment instead of try to reflect and come up with something positive. For the most part, life has been great. Busy, but great.
Kyle and I got engaged on October 13, 2012. :) I've been busy obsessing about details I never thought I would care about. Only get married once though and I just really want it to be beautiful and fun for everyone. We are pretty much there except for a few small details though so now I am just getting excited. We are getting married on June 22nd at a beautiful atrium in Sandy. I also can't wait to go on our honeymoon to Mexico for 7 days. I can't wait to start out family; we are both getting super antsy about kids. It's weird because we've already bought a house and been living together, so we've had our "married" time together. I can't wait to fall in love with our child and to get to experience every memory and moment.
My health issues are still under control, which is great. I've been able to go out to eat (which I hadn't done in 4 years) and have been able to socialize more without fearing a complete anxiety attack. It's nice feeling like a person again. I still miss having a really close friend (besides Kyle) but I don't know if that will ever happen. Honestly, I find it difficult to truly connect with most people. The majority of people are focused on themselves to the point that they can't even really be there for other people. I do love hanging out with Kyle's sisters though and I hope to have the chance to get closer with them.
I got LASIK in December and got my first tattoo. i am proud to have crossed my two-year mark and to have gotten something that will always have meaning to me. Te ipsam a te ipsa libera.. Free yourself from yourself. Great lesson that I am still trying to put into place in my everyday life. We are our own worst enemies in so many ways and I have to remind myself constantly that my emotions/pain are not me. Just have to keep fighting the negativity that seems to be the normal state of mind in the world.
Just have to keep focusing on love.