Sunday, August 22, 2010
Eat. Pray. Love.
So much pretty, Eat Pray Love was a fantastic movie. I found myself relating to it way too much so there were some lessons that were a little too close to home. One that stands out most to me though is I realize that I haven't forgiven myself for leaving Tyler. I constantly feel guilty about the situation he is in now and I always blame myself and think that if I had stayed he would be making better choices and would be a better person. I need to let this part of me go because I know that I did my best and that I even sacrificed a lot of my life to try to make it work with him. I've given both of us a chance to live happier, more functional lives. I wish him the best, but I need to realize that what happens to him now is his choices and his fault, not mine.
I also learned that it's okay for me to miss him and it's okay for me to hurt over him as long as I keep moving on and making good choices for me. Instead of being angry, I am trying to make it a goal to think positively towards him when I do and to just let it go. Sometimes it truly is better to hurt like hell for awhile to avoid having a lifetime of misery and I know that each day is only going to get better as long as I keep stepping forward.
This movie also makes me want to travel so bad. I don't have anywhere specific in mind, but there's a part of me that could take 2 years off just to travel and would have no problem with it. I hope that I can make that a reality one day. :)